Well this is a new year, new me year for me. I went through a break up at the start of the year but its for the better. I told myself it was time to focus on myself & find who I really am. I see it as if I can't love myself & have confidence in myself then I can't love anyone else. I decided its time change the things I want to change about myself & get to where I want to be. So that I will be ready when the right one comes my way.  The single life is a little different for me because I'm not used to it but I'm going to wait on the one God has for me & learn to be patient. Good things come to those who wait, so I believe it will be worth it in the end.

 

 

In January, I decided I wanted to lose the weight I had been saying forever I wanted to lose. It was hard to motivate myself but I did it and I'm very proud to say this is what I did.

It was hard at first because I had to make the adjustments with my eating habits and what I ate. but once I got the hang of it, I motivated myself everyday. I weighed myself  3 times a day which motivated me to lose each pound. I'm almost at my goal weight and I plan to continue to eat healthy. Losing this weight, I gained confidence. I can finally look in the mirror and be happy with my appearance.  & I feel good about myself because now I'm getting healthy not only for myself but for Haleigh as well.

 

That quote motivates me to keep on pushing forward to meet every goal I want to reach. & I know with God on my side anything is possible. & I'm striving to get closer to him because if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be who I am today or where I am today. & I'll leave you with this scripture.

 

Do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. you need to preserve so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. - Hebrews 10:35-36

 

me lately

Well the start of the year we found out my mama has stage 4 neuroindocrine cancer. It hit me like a ton of bricks..all i could do was cry..as i have already saw  what cancer does with my mamas daddy (Papa). I thank god that it was caught just in time and she got surgery. & i thank god i still have my mama. this is just a pure example that life is too short and things change in the blink of an eye. It opened my eyes..made me see that you cant take things for grantite

I'm also having my own battle...i'm having trouble with my weight due to horrible eating habits. i tell myself I've got to stop, i just cant get myself motivated. i pray i can find the strength and mind set to change. i want to be healthy for not only myself but Haleigh too. ive also have anger spurts and i feel really down because its with the ones i love. i find myself constantly arguing with Bryan. I hate it! it makes me feel so bad and makes me look like i dont appreciate him. im also slacking as a mom :( i pray God will help guide me to become a better mom. I'm not as close to God anymore but i'm tryng to work on that.

2014 goals;

1. get healthy

2: learn to accept who i am

3: control my anger

4: become a better mom

5: get closer to god

& last but not least..count my blessings not my burdens!